The beginning of the Awakening ...

LOOK AT travelers in the bus or in the train !
It seems many of them are always busy with something else in their minds !
It seems there are always some distances, some kinds of boundaries between themselves and their surroundings : They are always entangling in a closed world, the world of mind !

It seems there are at least two different processes operating simultaneosly in their minds. One to travel and another( background ) is busy with other problems !



THESE BACKGROUND processes are sources of delusions and imaginations ! They consume much of our mental energy, days and nights. As a result of that we have not much left to do useful things and we are so quickly tired after just doing something.



HOW MORE we are busy with these processes, how more we are busy with the thinking mind. We are more and more dependent on many things: We got to get a cigarette. We got to take a coffee. We got to meet someone. We got to do something ...
We begin losing control of our life, we are no longer the only master of our body-and-mind !..
We become a slave of mind!

OUR BODY IS then in state nearly the same as a house full of spider webs and dusty things. The cells in our body are full of dirty energy. Some parts of our body are not often enough checked to see if something to be done, while other parts could be overloaded with energy ...
That is why some places in our body could be in state of blocking, unreachable for the controlling from some (super) processes ...

The controlling over our body-and-mind are therefore weaker and weaker days by days ...

AFTER SUCH A long time, our biological clock could be disordered. We could not sleep wel. We begin the day not with pleasure... Like a window behind a curtain of spider webs, our senses could be no more sensitive and some of our organs could no longer function probably.
Perhaps it is the most important source of illnesses.



AT THE DARKEST period of my life, every time I needed to go to the toilet, it was nearly too late because my mind was too busy with many other things, than interpreting the asking from my stomatch ...

Think about driving on highway but our mind is busy with thinking something else ...
Think about sleeping but our mind is still busy with all kind of problems and ... dreaming processes : we could normally never really be in rest, even in our sleep ...



NO MATTER what we are doing: washing the dishes, cooking, walking, eating, in the toilet, or open our eyes middle in the nights ... Whenever we discover our mind is busy with somethingelse, not the same with what we are doing...
we have to be back in the Reality again by letting our mind be our breaths, let thoughts go by be nonthinking ...
One way to do this is Walking in Full Awareness and
Sleeping in Full Awareness ...

BY LETTING our mind be our breaths days and nights, we are weakening the background processes.
We eliminate the bases of those nonsense's so that they could never emerge into the foreground or even take controls over our body-and-mind again.
The weaker the background processes, the more energy we possess and the stronger our master one.

VERY SLOWLY our breaths are more and more pleasing. Our senses, our organs, our cells are checked continuously and we are days by days nearer the Reality.
We begin taking controls of our own life's again !



SUDDENLY WE ARE aware of something, at some moment after a long enough time of letting our mind in the Present Moment ...
Suddenly we understand something !...
Something we used to do for a very long time, perhaps since years ago.
Something unuseful ! Something Nonsense ! Something Wrong !

Since when ? We could never know !



WHY DO WE do that ? Why do we sit like that ? Why do we lay down like that ? Why do we talk like that ? Why do we have chili in food? Why do we have to smoke ? ...
Why are we so angry like that ? Why do we hate someone so much ? Why do we love someone so much ?
What are we looking for, years after years ? ...
Why are we so unhappy ?...

IT IS THE BEGINNING OF THE AWAKENING !

We begin to destroy the background processes one by one !
We begin the breaking-up of the Self !
We begin to be aware of our Life,
in Time and Space, in the Present Moment...



LIKE A TRAVELLER suddenly be at home after tens of years away, we suddenly see our selfs ! We see dusty things and spider webs... We see every corners, every spaces in our house...
We see Time and Space !

We see something in its true nature ! ...
Something of us is suddenly sent back into the past, where it belonged once, and never be back in the present again.

We are one step nearer the Reality.



IT IS the beginning of the Nonthinking state, the background processes are eliminated one by one from our minds.
They belonged to the past.
They will be lost for ever .

NO REMEMBRANCE, no shames, no sorrows... nothing !
You feel no sorry for anything that really was in the past. Memories are still there, in our mind, but these processes are eliminated for ever. Our mind-computers are no longer busy with the nonsense's.
Our senses are more and more under controls of the master process. The world around us is also gradually changing.
We become slowly another persons.
We are born again.

ONE DAY, during my meal, I went to the kitchen about three meters away to take some hot chili. Under way, suddenly I understood, and came back to my meal, never feel needed hot chili again !.

SINCE WHEN I got used to hot chili ?
I could never know, perhaps since my years of ten, in the war then, we did not have much to eat those days and a little fish sauce together with hot chili was delicious enough ...
Since then, every time I began my meal, the process of taking hot chili was set in motion and take over my body-and-mind without delay: my legs, my hands, my mouth, my mind and even my intention ...
Every time I went to the market, I remembered getting some hot chili ...
And I was always ready to the market merely to get ... hot chili for my meal ...
But from now on I was totally liberated from hot chili ...



WE SLEEP better, No daydreams.
Our energy is no longer wasted for images of the thinking minds but more and more useful for enjoying life. We wake up in the morning with full power, and begin each new 24 hours in very pleasant feeling. Our hearts, our minds, our consciousness ... are more and more open.
We become more and more easy-going persons.

THE WAY we walk, the way we sit, the way we lay down, the way we look, the way we eat ... and even the way we think ... are also slowly changing !
We are more and more aware of what we are doing, of every happening inside our body, of everything around us.
We are less and less dependent on other peoples,
on our Desires, on our Ambitions, on our Emotions ...

LIKE A GIANT from some legends, we are ready to face the Reality in the Present Moment, to face everything we did in the past in the name of Desires, of Ambitions, of Emotions ... , in the name of the Self.

The whole body-and-mind is undergoing an extraordinary transformation...



SLOWLY THE TRUE nature of many things is disclosed from images of the thinking minds. We begin to see many things without added values from the Past, from Future or from the Self. Time and Space, which is the bases of our existence. The mornings. The nights. The winters. The snows. The flowers. The children. The people ...

WE COMMUNICATE better with peoples around us. We bring to them the open mind, the coexistence and nonviolence of everything. We bring happiness to everyone at home, at work, at the market, on the train,.. everywhere.
Boundaries between peoples are slowly fading ...

WE BEGIN more and more not to be dependent on anything, on anyone. We begin to be our self, a nondependent creature.
We begin to enjoy life ...
Life exists only in the Present Moments ...



OUR MASTER process is days by days stronger. It takes controls over our physical body again. Our senses, our organs are cleaned of spider webs, and dusty things from the past. We feel stronger, much stronger. Our biological clock works punctually again. Our cells receive fresh and clean energy continuously, they are also much stronger against sickness.
We gradually become another person...

SLOWLY OUR mental energy is continuously built up days by days. But the way to the Liberation is perhaps still not clear somewhere. When this happens, we are in neutral state of mind: No feeling. Our body-and-minds are like stones. No happiness. No unhappiness. No hates. No loves. No ambitions. Nothing.
It is the process of dissolving negative energy in our body.

You are on the threshold of something new, you never saw before !.



SOMETIMES, all background processes are eliminated (or at least, non active) from your mind-computer: It is the absolute Silence. Very strange Silence, like a ceasefire between the battles, like the sudden shutdown of the whole computer room. YOU are in Nonthinking state .
You are at ease.
Thoughts cease to exist.
For a while, five or ten minutes, you are only busy with what you are doing. Your mind is free of any nonsense's except what you are doing.

FROM ELSEWHERE inside the unknown, you feel Peace slowly coming. But perhaps you are still not happy. You are aware of the Silence, perhaps not during the happening, then afterward.



WHEN WE are strong enough, suddenly we are happy !
We are in a Silent Space!
We are in Peace!



It is the beginning to the True Liberation of suffering !
If there were GOD, He should be very pleased with our Happiness, right Now, in This Moment ...

Not because we have power. Not because we got a new house, a new car. Not because we are nice-looking...
It is not the Happiness of getting so much money, or a new lover ... or seeing the dead bodies of your enemies ...
IT is the Happiness of a child busy with his toys in the morning, or an old man seeing Time and Space ...

JUST cooking, washing, cleaning, reading ... doing something ...
Just doing something in Happiness without any reasons ...




LIKE SOMEONE in psychiatric hospital suddenly awakening after a long sleep: They see now doctors, nurses ... They have now fathers, mothers, friendships ,.. and even children.
They could walk, eat, change clothes by themselves...
They see now the breeze in the morning, they smell now flowers in the gardens nearby...
They gain controls over their own lives again !

They are there now, after years of sinking in the Imaginations ...



WE ARE right Here, with our real Life !
with the Beauty of Time and Space,
with the Reality in This Moment ...

WE ARE in Peace !.
Peace in our mind! Peace in our Consciousness!
Peace in the space around us.
No boundary between us and the space around, no fear of anything, freedom from Fear IS a great happiness.
Wealth or fame is out of considerations,
a carefree living is also a great happiness ...



IT ISthe True Happiness, the Happiness without reasons !.
Not in the Heaven and not in the next Reincarnation,
but right now, in this very Present Moments....


LET THOUGHTS GO BY, BE NON THINKING ! ...

SOME fruits collected on my journey are further in Seeking For The True Happiness ...

© October 1999 ,
Nguyen Sau Rieng

NOTES :



Waking and Sleeping in Awareness are very popular subjects in many books about Meditation. Many of them you could find in The Reading Corner.